Well you might’ve played a game where you go and try to memorize the names of others and then you introduce yourself. It’s one of the things that sounds extremely simple up into it is you going up . Then the names are jumbled and there are so many errors. You think you’re the only one. Time seems to slow itself but it’s not you everyone goes through this.
Congratulations! You have a struggle right?
Shhh you hear someone say, you see that person over there? Well they have it worse. Of course they do. I mean if you look at it that way everyone is either worse off or better than you. I think my favorite comparison is, “well you could have be where you’re paralyzed and all you can do is drool on yourself.”
To which I always think to myself, thanks that’s actually a subject of nightmares for me. I feel like when you have a problem people are quick to point out other people suffering and being like, “be grateful that isn’t you.” And really that isn’t helpful. Because realistically someone probably is thinking that about you and all it does is create a loop of jealously. There’s a good chance that while you’re pointing your finger someone is glad their finger isn’t crooked while pointing.
Good bye, I say this after a couple of months, that’s just how things work isn’t it. We go in with a hope, only to come out some time later disappointed. That’s life, no one is perfect sadly. Here I sit. What brings you to my mind, to the place where I most commonly spill my guts… everything pours out and luckily I have a reader such as yourself to listen and ponder as everyone does. As we should.
They say don’t swear…. Shhh if that’s you it’s ok to do it, you do you art censored nullifies the vision, what are your thoughts?
I don’t talk a whole lot Most of the time I have taken up the idea of It is deeply ingrained. Though I do wonder if I hate it because when I think I stutter and then while I think that. My brain replays what I said in my head. Now that creates a feedback loop. I hear it twice. Then my annoyingly self conscious mind begins to wonder what those around me are thinking. It makes me seize up more. Boom I’m stuck. In reality I’m sure no one cares. The real issue is that I hear my voice so rarely that when I do hear what I really sound like, I can almost feel how the vocal cords are bending to make my own unique frequency of voice.
In order to truly control something you have train it. So that is what I did.. A few times at least. I read the first page of Harry Potter a couple times, My tongue got stiff in a few of the takes I also noticed that it is quite impossible for me to recite word for word. It is like my brain wants to just skip those words and give it a more human sound to it almost as if the way we write is not equal to that of human speech. It has to be perfect. But the real question is …..
I just read the first paragraph outed close to a nightmare of everything sizing up boom here we go round two here we go .
I know of a city. Formed off broke Ambition, The hope being that this grand plan of a municipality would rival that of the finest. Great ancient builders put a great deal of the gold snow into it. In this world, In the areas that had the highest potential to be fantastic. One of the gods came to cultivate it, grow the finest of trees. The finest greens. The far off opposing city of lost Silver was supposed to tremble in its. Wake. The land was gathered up. The God set to work for many years though eventually, he grew tired, and his project ended. The God left, and the inhabitants tried to make their own way, but they liked things being the way they were. Time passed, and the ideas of the future remained stagnant for much later time. Older wise men came there to live their days peacefully And passed in. Due time. That was was where the city got its name. The young sprouts that went from the land always tried to uproot themselves. Their little green legs popping up between the cracks the run to the beginning, away from the end.
We all have favorite books. Even if you don’t realize it, I’m sure that just by hearing the title you’ve thought of a book. Perhaps yours is a classic or a new modern book that has yet to explode into that beautiful flower you know it to be. My favorite book can easily be put at The Hobbit by Tolkien, the high fantasy that feels truly like it was made for himself and to calm his mind after a long days work . Who knows, but tell me what your favorite book is!
There are so many different ways to read books today, you can listen read physical books or even get ebooks that you can have a version on you at all times. But people seem to be getting less into reading more into videos so how do we know what is next? What do you think?
Part of us is constantly nervous. Another part is superbly confident and has so much it wants to do. If you think about it we all have two parts. What we want to do and what we believe to be logical. Sure you know what you’ve got to do while also sitting thinking no I don’t really need that. It would be nice but I don’t need it. That, my friend is where you are wrong. You do need to do this, if it is what will make you happy then it is not a maybe it is a must for your sake. Don’t put your dreams on hold out of fear talk to that person do that thing you’ve always wanted to dO.
But it’s hard, because those two parts of you are at war do and don’t they say, two opposite messages to yourself, you have to push through to the one that you want to hear, follow your dreams and know if you push hard enough it will work.