I hate the sound of my own voice

I don’t talk a whole lot Most of the time I have taken up the idea of It is deeply ingrained. Though I do wonder if I hate it because when I think I stutter and then while I think that. My brain replays what I said in my head. Now that creates a feedback loop. I hear it twice. Then my annoyingly self conscious mind begins to wonder what those around me are thinking. It makes me seize up more. Boom I’m stuck. In reality I’m sure no one cares. The real issue is that I hear my voice so rarely that when I do hear what I really sound like, I can almost feel how the vocal cords are bending to make my own unique frequency of voice.

In order to truly control something you have train it. So that is what I did.. A few times at least. I read the first page of Harry Potter a couple times, My tongue got stiff in a few of the takes I also noticed that it is quite impossible for me to recite word for word. It is like my brain wants to just skip those words and give it a more human sound to it almost as if the way we write is not equal to that of human speech. It has to be perfect. But the real question is …..

Is it?

I just read the first paragraph outed close to a nightmare of everything sizing up boom here we go round two here we go .

Books! Are they dying?

There are so many different ways to read books today, you can listen read physical books or even get ebooks that you can have a version on you at all times. But people seem to be getting less into reading more into videos so how do we know what is next? What do you think?

Hit the montage

Oh boy! You’ve finally hit it big, you’re doing what you love and making money at it. Life couldn’t be better, it took you a few years but when Hollywood gets ahold that long time to make they happen will be set and passed in a minute of screen time so all we must do is do our thing. Create what we must to get to our happiness and watch all the years later when that work is glossed over in a minute.

Is thinking about things bad?

You’ve probably had those things that you watch or play and they are so profoundly deep that you think and you think on it. It goes deep. There are so many different to interpret it you could probably take a course on it and still have more to learn afterwards. So what do you do in those situations? Well for starters I think it’s great to watch films that make you think or see part but I also think it is great to watch lighter things to give your mind a break. But when you do think about it I do think it would be best to think about it for a few days and then move on to the next things.\

So not in moderation.

A Quick thought of one of the strangest movies ever.

So I don’t know if you’ve heard of the movie Synedoche New York but I think it is about a guy that wants to create a massive play that encapsulates life. He spends his whole life working on it but it never seems to go anywhere and then he dies. “Devin!” I hear you say, “that sounds incredibly morbid and and sad!”

To which I say yes it does. The movie is weird,

But….

Even sad things can serve to motivate us properly.

  1. Don’t make things overly massive to the4 point of impossibly in your writing focus on a few characters and don’t dwell too much one every little detail; or things will never get done. I do not that some people do focus on a bunch of characters. As much as every little detail would be tempting don’t! Keep pace and finish it.
  2. Don’t dwell too much on the past. Learn from it definitely but don’t let it tether you, There are no strings on me or you!
  3. Look at things in a good light that will help there are always good thing Otherwise you might a sabotage good thing.

There we go three cool lessons!

Now listen to “Here comes the sun” by The Beatles

Working in siilence

With only the click of a key one the board I work in silence

Click…. Click… Click

Usually there is music in the background

Not today

We work in the silence

Today

Click

Building blocks: be set!

Now today I must ask you a question! Are you poised at the edge of your seat? You must be, one can hope! So one Important part pot expanding oneself in the world is the destination of a facebook page! Would any of you be interested in such a thing? The desire would be that with time it could grow beyond what it is! All the parts are in order. So that is the constant growth, constant expansion keep things growing and hopefully it would be beyond men at some point. This community grows each passing day and I am excited as I am sure you are as well. Thanks to this journey that we have the opportunity to grow together!

Better yourself by doing things

Where have I been?? So basically I can’t type fast, so I sat in my room and thought hey gotta start somewhere. Obviously or not so, I thought to myself hey gotta start with the something, so in a moment I decided that I would improve my skills on typing. That is what has been done for many of the past few days. Just keeping things going. I have audio books going so I have this constant stream of new information going. Different ways to read and write coming in, inspiring me among other things. It is weird I do feel like I am getting smarter as I practice daily and listen more though I do have to remember things are just getting started so here I sit, my speed getting faster.

Cut the Celery

When you try to do something at first, you’re probably not be hugely successful. I mean look at me. I couldn’t cut Celery for the life of me. It was like. CUT. Not quite right. CUT, Slice, I hear the sound of the Celery cutting not quite right, the sound bounces through my eardrums it is incredibly satisfying Almost at the core of being ASMR. So I kept going and eventually figured it out in a way, still going hopefully things will improving .

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