Eating food that tastes of disappointment

So I wake up hungry, the previous day my family had bought pastries, with danish cream and then there was the mysterious almond one, having almonds… and I think powder sugar… well have you ever wondered what sadness tastes like? Without the seasoning of salty tears? Well it tastes like a lack of solid flavor, more so it tasted like bread without the proper things to give it the nice tanginess that bread has. So don’t eat the almond pastry.

Today’s song: Oats in the water by Ben Howard.

The Hobbit Game: More Mistakes!

So after I grew older and I wiser, I played the game again.. Smarter and much less fearful than before! Hooray! This time though another error occurred. I managed to only save with half a health point left so progression was now an impossibility. The writer in me wants to say that I pulled some amazing techno wizardry and solved the issue alas I again had to rely on my on to finish so oops

The Hobbit Game: More Mistakes!

So after I grew older and I wiser, I played the game again.. Smarter and much less fearful than before! Hooray! This time though another error occurred. I managed to only save with half a health point left so progression was now an impossibility. The writer in me wants to say that I pulled some amazing techno wizardry and solved the issue alas I again had to rely on my on to finish so oops

For yourself

I don’t. know how many times I’ve heard something along the lines of do it for the niche how are you going to market it. Well technically I’m not.. Technically we are always making someone money every time we open our phones up. So let’s just say you should do what you want.. doing it for you and not the monetary gain will keep the burnout away. Here’s to hoping.

Sleep on bus

When you’re trying your hardest to remain awake when on bus and your eyes keep closing and then you are in the first layer of sleep. Your mind pulls to the weirdest parts, as the outside world still contributes to the craziness within, do you still sleep?

Translations (The Witcher)

I’m reading the Witcher, written by Andrzej Sapkowski. It’s good, the one thing that bugs me is, is am I actually reading the words of the author, or that of the translator’s Danusia Stok, after a curiosity forming, of wether or not she was polish born, I found myself on a page that says she was born and raised in England.

Are there words in Poland that don’t exist in the English lexicon, (short answer is yes there are phrases that lack sense to the American). And with that is this the same story that was written. My best guess would be a yes, stories were transferred through history verbally with minor tweaks to the understanding so this is probably no different, my only hope is that authorial Intent is still soundly intact.

FORTNITE

It’s back in full swing new season new items new down time??? It is interesting how a game so silly can be so big. How much bigger can it get what does it mean for the future what do you think?

I hate the sound of my own voice

I don’t talk a whole lot Most of the time I have taken up the idea of It is deeply ingrained. Though I do wonder if I hate it because when I think I stutter and then while I think that. My brain replays what I said in my head. Now that creates a feedback loop. I hear it twice. Then my annoyingly self conscious mind begins to wonder what those around me are thinking. It makes me seize up more. Boom I’m stuck. In reality I’m sure no one cares. The real issue is that I hear my voice so rarely that when I do hear what I really sound like, I can almost feel how the vocal cords are bending to make my own unique frequency of voice.

In order to truly control something you have train it. So that is what I did.. A few times at least. I read the first page of Harry Potter a couple times, My tongue got stiff in a few of the takes I also noticed that it is quite impossible for me to recite word for word. It is like my brain wants to just skip those words and give it a more human sound to it almost as if the way we write is not equal to that of human speech. It has to be perfect. But the real question is …..

Is it?

I just read the first paragraph outed close to a nightmare of everything sizing up boom here we go round two here we go .

Two halves to one person

Part of us is constantly nervous. Another part is superbly confident and has so much it wants to do. If you think about it we all have two parts. What we want to do and what we believe to be logical. Sure you know what you’ve got to do while also sitting thinking no I don’t really need that. It would be nice but I don’t need it. That, my friend is where you are wrong. You do need to do this, if it is what will make you happy then it is not a maybe it is a must for your sake. Don’t put your dreams on hold out of fear talk to that person do that thing you’ve always wanted to dO.

But it’s hard, because those two parts of you are at war do and don’t they say, two opposite messages to yourself, you have to push through to the one that you want to hear, follow your dreams and know if you push hard enough it will work.

Blind date with a book….

So I’m sitting there, looking at these books wrapped in white. There are small words on the front. Hand crafted of course, these small imperfections that add to the beauty of the project. I looked at them, my mind racing with the possibility. That happens a lot, I love when my mind races. The feeling of possibility is absolutely beautiful. It was a gamble sure. Money to be placed on something And you don’t know what, but with some amount of trust I went through and bought a book taking a serious chance and having the scared part of my brain say “no put it back! You could hate it! But also I could love it so I stopped worrying (I mean I tried to I just tuned it out!) then I went ahead read the white paper one last time and tore it open! Taking a leap and hoping with excitement.

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