We all have favorite books. Even if you don’t realize it, I’m sure that just by hearing the title you’ve thought of a book. Perhaps yours is a classic or a new modern book that has yet to explode into that beautiful flower you know it to be. My favorite book can easily be put at The Hobbit by Tolkien, the high fantasy that feels truly like it was made for himself and to calm his mind after a long days work . Who knows, but tell me what your favorite book is!
Part of us is constantly nervous. Another part is superbly confident and has so much it wants to do. If you think about it we all have two parts. What we want to do and what we believe to be logical. Sure you know what you’ve got to do while also sitting thinking no I don’t really need that. It would be nice but I don’t need it. That, my friend is where you are wrong. You do need to do this, if it is what will make you happy then it is not a maybe it is a must for your sake. Don’t put your dreams on hold out of fear talk to that person do that thing you’ve always wanted to dO.
But it’s hard, because those two parts of you are at war do and don’t they say, two opposite messages to yourself, you have to push through to the one that you want to hear, follow your dreams and know if you push hard enough it will work.
Well another day passes, I’ve made some progress I’d like to say well I have, I mean in technicality. We write and we write listening to those around us who don’t believe in the medium so we keep going despite that it its hard on some of the days where you wonder if it’s what you are supposed to do. Of course you know it’s what you gotta do but there is that feeling. That maybe they are right well you gotta do your own thing thats it just do it.
Don’t over analyze things, if you do things can get confusing . I mean every day is a gift and if you are too focused on yesterdays gift then hoe could you appreciate what you are presently given! Cape Diem.
I’m listening to Crushing it by Gary Vaynerchuck. Something he said really stuck out to me. “Everyone’s an ass until they are a pioneer.” With those words, I thought of a lot of people I have seen over the years in the internet space. “One common thing that people said was “Oh that guy is just an ass screaming at his computer while he plays a quote and quote “scary game,” They are quick to turn their noses up to it. He should get a real job they grumble. It’s so stupid they continue.
Funny story, I used to bet one of those people. In a traditional sense, it made me mad that they were doing something like that and being incredibly successful at it. Grr!! Okay Okay, I’m good now. Fast forward a couple of years and I’m getting all introspective. Maybe I’m Jealous. Maybe we’re all jealous of Pewdiepie or JackFilms. I mean they do silly things instead of being tied into the cogs of society. This ties back to what Gary Vaynerchuck said. Maybe we should risk being mocked and made fun of for a little we could end up doing something we lover in the end!
Journeys are the most important of the story or a game. The ending does hold some level of importance, but in the sense of reality, we all have to go through something to get to the end of something else. Boom, we see the end of the tunnel. It is far off but to it the problem is we panic stuck in the darkness of night keep going. You think it’s gonna swallow you whole, it feels cold you lose hope as you get close to the end it gets unbearable, doom breaths down your neck and right when you are collapsing and crawling to the end you are sure you aren’t gonna make it. Why am I doing this, you say? Keep crawling, you’ll make it.
I don’t know about you but I often use video games as a way to cope with an annoying bad day? Right? Yeah you feel me, I know you were probably at school looking at that cute girl Joanna ( or maybe you were checking Mathew cause impure he’s cool too) Anyway I bet today you were like I’m finally gonna ask them out yeah?
Well you didn’t, you got really nervous and chickened out… and thats okay like everyone does occasionally, your brain will be like nah this is a special you thing that you and only you go through, but really we all feel you don’t worry
I think a big thing that everyone worries about is wether or not what they are doing is right, it is a constant confusion. That has been me for a good amount of time now I look at my past and I think hey, maybe I could have done things better. I mean maybe that’s the curse of hindsight. Like, hey I could have done this better or this or that or whatever it is that you may be worried about. Because you now possess a god like view perhaps now knowing hoe others felt or what it is they knew in the time. I am not going to pretend that I am good at that, in fact my mind is prone to obsessively look at the past.
“No, I totally did this wrong, god I can feel it,” Those deep breaths of worry, even as I type this, my fingers reuse up as if they want to claw at the the past and do things right in my minds eye or something. But I guess the important thing is to constantly move forward. Keep moving forward as Disney famously coined. Deep breath -inhale- Okay we’re good I think -exhale-
So I was in the shower. You know something that happens every day. I was thinking, it was much like rain, where the storm pushes all the toxins in the down, and everything feels pure. So that’s an important thing to think about don’t, don’t forget to take time for your thoughts.